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I feel bored. Not bored like "I have nothing to do right now" but like chronic boredom. Like bored of life.

I don't want to go for lectures. I don't want to go for tutorials. I don't want to go to university at all. I don't want to go out food shopping. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. I just want to curl up somewhere warm and comfy and just stay there forever.


I know I sound like a petulant kid. Don't really care. Leave me alone!


Everything feels pointless and... well, boring.


Ugh.





I don't even really care about going home for Christmas; not right now anyway. I tried to cheer myself up and give myself something to look forward to by saying, "Just hang in there till you can go home for Christmas!!" But I just can't get worked up or excited about it. A part of me is saying, "So what?"

This will pass, I know that. I will be my usual happy cheerful self again soon enough. And of course I will be very happy and excited about going home and seeing Brendan and family.



But right now I don't really care

Wake Up

Wake up, my love
Get up and adjust the pegs holding your curtains
Drink your water and reach for your glasses
Rub your eyes and clear your throat

Wake up, my love
Turn on your laptop
Click on the Skype icon
Smile at me with eyes barely open

Because you don't have to see me
To love me
And I don't have to be with you
To want you

But wake up anyway, my love
Because I can't see you
Or be with you
And therefore I miss you.

Terri's feeling so poem-ey today xD I won't flatter myself by saying I feel poetic T^T

I should be doing my essay instead bloody hell T^T

Hey there
I'm giving you a ticket for speeding

Come away from your cushioned boxes
Put away your wires and
Pick up that guitar in the dusty case

Come sit with me on the grass
Just for a while
Fingers brushing singing
And we can watch the clouds go by

The wind is blowing through the trees
Children are running forward
As are we all -
But the sun is shining
And the world keeps spinning

So come with me
And stay with me
Don't leave though you sit so near
I want to hear you laugh
Don't run like water through my fingers
Hey there

Come kiss me.

Half composed in my head while I was walking home through the meadows.

ooh, Youtube is good.

You know that "Recommended for You" section on the Youtube homepage? It basically randomly selects videos for you based on the videos you've viewed in the past. Anyway, it threw this up for me:





Damn, they're good. I'm such a sucker for gooey love songs AND Disney. But a two-in-one combination??? I'm sold!!! Almost cried listening to this T^T I'm such a baby I know T^T

The perils of having flatmates

We've all seen the horrifyingly embarrassing but very amusing results of FacebookRape. Laptops should all come with intruder-protection as well as virus-protection xD

Just now, I left my word processor open and wandered over to the other end of the kitchen to steal some of Grant's vegetarian mock-mince-beef and onion gravy pie.... When I came back my English Lit essay had been sabotaged.

Gulliver’s Travels by Jonathan Swift has been described as Menippean satire; essentially, satire that combines many different targets of ridicule into a complex and fragmented narrative (Northrop Frye). For Swift uses the literary devices of satire, parody and irony

I am terri i am a terrible secretary and i cannot write essays or read anything also i have no attention span which is silly because it is which doesn’t make sense but oh well thats what i do

I am oana and i cannot cook but am a better flatmate than terri anyway

Wtf =.=

for his many fans:

A recent picture of David, standing in the doorway of my bedroom with his Cool Dude mug xD




The picture is really grainy coz the light in the hallway was off. Oh well xD

love is a behaviour

Thank you for showing me how much you love me, everyday!! ♥♥



I don't know what I'd do without you. I don't know where I'd be now if it wasn't for you. You've given me so so much and still patiently endure all my whining and complaining and emotional unstability when I PMS. I know I have no real right to complain, and you know it too; so it makes me love you even more when you take my problems seriously and help me get over myself. Thank you, love.

Because you see; one can't just say "I love you," to a person and then proceed to ignore them or abuse them or take them for granted, then still expect them to believe it. You have to show your love, because love is a behaviour! But at the same time, you have to know when someone is saying that they love you without words :)


Bah I'm so soppy! Even I can't tahan my own mushiness!! Lol.




Of course, I'm a philosophy student so I can't agree that behaviour constitues a mental state (i.e. love). So I'm not saying that "love=behaviour and nothing else"!! that is not what I meant, at all
But I suppose I am somewhat a Behaviourist at heart. Or at least an Instrumentalist. Still, the sentimental part of me wants to be irrational and say that there's more to love and other emotions than the behaviour attributed to them. But this wasn't supposed to be a philosophical rant....

*shuts up*



Back to original topic! Thank you for treating me good, baby :D You're the best <3

this too shall pass

Endure. Be but patient, for this too shall pass

I decided the post I'd written was a little bit too personal to publish so it shall remain in my drafts. Right now it's 9.16am where my love sleeps, and I don't expect him to wake up anytime soon considering what time he went to bed last night. Ah well~




Good morning Brendan :)

Ode on the Death of a Favourite Cat

Drowned in a Tub of Goldfishes

Thomas Gray

'Twas on a lofty vase's side,
Where China's gayest art had dyed
The azure flowers that blow;
Demurest of the tabby kind,
The pensive Selima reclined,
Gazed on the lake below.

Her conscious tail her joy declared;
The fair round face, the snowy beard,
The velvet of her paws,
Her coat, that with which the tortoise vies,
Her ears of jet, and emerald eyes,
She saw; and purred applause.

Still had she gazed; but 'midst the tide
Two angel forms were seen to glide,
The genii of the stream:
Their scaly armor's Tyrian hue
Through richest purple to the view
Betrayed a golden gleam.

The hapless nymph with wonder saw;
A whisker first and then a claw,
With many an ardent wish,
She stretched in vain to reach the prize.
What female heart can gold despise?
What cat's averse to fish?

Presumptuous maid! with looks intent
Again she stretched, again she bent,
Nor knew the gulf between.
(Malignant Fate sat by and smiled)
The slippery verge her feet beguiled,
She tumbled headlong in.

Eight times emerging from the flood
She mewed to every watery god,
Some speedy aid to send.
No dolphin came, no nereid stirred:
Nor cruel Tom, nor Susan heard.
A favourite has no friend!

From hence, ye beauties, undeceived,
Know, one false step is ne'er retrieved,
And be with caution bold.
Not all that tempts your wandering eyes
And heedless hearts is lawful prize;
Nor all that glisters gold.

Selima, one of Horace Walpole's cats, had recently drowned in a china cistern. Gray wrote this memorial at Walpole's request.

terri says:

Hap choi!!!! :D





I know it doesn't mean anything, but it randomly came into my head and I felt like saying it!! I think it should become a new martial arts saying :D As you karate chop your opponent, you yell "HAP CHOIIII!!!!" xP

random procrastinating post (here we go again)

On Monday the Create Society is having a Worldbuilding workshop!!! :D I'm ditching both Sign Soc and Debating Union to go for it xD I would love to be able to create my own fictional world. Made an attempt at it once, but it died pretty quickly because my made-up world just wasn't logically consistent.

I'm sitting in my living room reading LOTR for the third time instead of doing work. Sigh. But I haven't read it in so longgg! :( Okay I'll read till they get to Buckland and then I'll go back to studying!!!! xP

I am eating so much junk and not exercising at all. I wanted to have salad today but Grant wanted pancakes so I am now stuffed full of nutella-banana-pancakes. Delicious, but soooo bad for you T^T And I was planning on stir-frying tau geh for myself tomorrow but Oana just walked in and announced that we're having ham-and-cheese-baked pasta for dinner tomorrow T^T I'm happy that we're eating so well but it isn't at all good for my figure T^T

Tried to go running earlier, with Oana. It was bad. I didn't even manage to work up a sweat before huffing and puffing. My heart felt all weak and my chest hurt and I almost died on the pavement, I swear. Or had a heart attack. Hopefully it's not me being pathetically out of shape, but rather me being not used to breathing the cold air so heavily. Oana said it's not good for you!!! So yeah. I can hope can't I :P Sigh. Will have to keep trying and hopefully get back in shape >.<


*yawns* I got bored of this post. Going to go back to LOTR now :3 Bai everyone~

if only

"I know it's really cliché, but... I miss you."
"Awww. It's okay to say you miss me, you know."

If only I had a pound for every moment I've keenly felt the loss of your presence. I'd be rich enough by now to pay for my tuition fees till I graduate.

I miss you.

the David post

David wanted a post because he was jealous that Grant got mentioned and he didn't xD WTF. Grant wasn't even blogged about! He just said something funny and worthy of the Quote of the Moment bar :P

Anyway, currently David is sitting at the kitchen table in his tie-dyed shirt, sewing a waistcoat for himself while his ridiculously long hair drapes all over the chair and table. His tie-dyed shirt is actually concealing his Architecture hoodie, which he technically isn't allowed to wear anymore since he dropped out of architecture :P

My dear flatmate also has terrible taste in music.

He is now happy because I just reassured him that he would get to eat some of the chocolate mousse that we're going to eat later. He randomly pouted at me that he wouldn't get to eat any coz he had a meeting with the Medieval Society. I informed the silly boy that Grant, Oana and I were also going for a debating meeting, and said we could make it when we got back afterwards, and have mousse for a sort of dessert-supper thing. David then went, "YAY!! Best. Supper. EVERRR!!!!" :P David has the mentality of a three year old.



He is also a selfish cheapskate meanie who doesn't pay Oana and I for all the food that we buy AND cook for him. Lazy evil bum. See what happens when you're so mean? You get flamed on your flatmate's blog >=3 Mwahahahaha. Spawn of Satan!!!!! *stabs David with a stake and sprinkles him with Holy Water*

this is David who was not too impressed with his post :P

Sometimes everything you do feels pointless.


Haven't felt like this in a while though. The last time I can remember feeling like this was in high school. What's wrong?

song and dance

"Why should we do this? What's the point of being in a long distance relationship anyway? We might as well cut our losses now; part on good terms and seek comfort in people who can actually be there. Seriously, why do we put ourselves through this?"
"Because it's worth it. It's worth it to me. Isn't it worth it to you? Well, only you can answer that. But think carefully before you do. Because whatever you decide, I'll accept it. And that will be that."
". . . Is it really worth it? Do I really mean that much to you?"
"Of course. Why else would I still be with you?"

A question I've asked so many times, an answer I've been given many times. Yet I keep on asking. Why do I doubt him so? Why am I so afraid? Or am I just being weak? Do I refuse to believe, or do I just not want to believe?

Or maybe I just want to hear the answer I already know he will give me. Maybe I just want to be reassured, to be told that yes, I am valued, and yes, I am loved. Because when he tells me that I am worth all the pain and suffering and loneliness and sadness, then I know. I know that he's worth it too.




So although sometimes I do feel like I just want to escape and take the easy way out... I fight it, and don't give in.

I'm sorry, baby. Forgive me for constantly going through this same song and dance. Please continue helping me to be strong. I need you. I do.